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Email to God
I’m tired. Life sucks. Or is that sucketh? You know what I mean. You’re God, right?
Today was such a tough day. Everything that could go wrong did. It’s always like that though. Or at least it feels like it.
How come I always feel like I ‘m swimming uphill through Jell-O? When do I get to be happy?
My whole life has been one crappy thing after another. If it wasn’t someone doing something crappy to me (which has been a lot), it was me making crappy choices and crappy things happening because of my crappy choices. Choices I can’t take back. Choices I wish I hadn’t made. I wish there was a rewind button.
Oh Lord, please just tell me what your sovereign will is! I’m not asking for the whole enchilada of divine wisdom and all. Just for like, maybe Tuesday, okay? I know. I’m sounding crazy. I’m going to go to sleep now. Thanks for listening.
My dearest daughter,
My heart breaks that you have to go through these things and feel these things. Although these are the things you need to live through to become who you will be, it is hard for me also when you are hurting. I’m there with you, remember?
When you turned to me in Belief, you were promised that I would never leave you or forsake you. I don’t break my promises. If I did, I wouldn’t be God, now would I? You know the mother that steps into the hallway when her child is having an immunization shot; because she can’t bear to see her child in pain and not be able to do anything? I’m not like that. No, I am with you always.
Sometimes you are so busy with ‘life’ that you don’t even feel me right beside you. It make me a sad when you won’t let me help you. But there are some wonderful times, when you are open to me and willing to listen. During those times you notice the small things I do for you to show you my love.
Remember last week near sunset? You were looking to the sky wondering. Just wondering. And you saw that light-filled cloud, the one with the iridescent purple edges. You remember? You thought it was shaped like a smiley face and that it was smiling right at you; and then you laughed as that bubble of joy in your tummy reached your lips.
That was just for you. I knew that it would bring you joy because I know what makes you happy. And so, I painted that colorful smile just for you.
You make me smile dear one.
I love everything about you because I made you. I even like the way your nose wrinkles up when you laugh. I love that you are so creative and colorful; it reflects My creativity and sense of humor. And before you ask, of course I have a sense of humor. If I didn’t would I have created the platypus? J
Tomorrow you will feel better and you will not be looking through such dark glasses. Trust me, I know you will. Until then child, you do not need to ask me what My Will or plan is for life on Tuesday. Ask me on Wednesday. But then, you won’t need to because it will have already happened.:)
Rest in my love.
Trust in my goodness and mercy.
Know that I am always with you.
Believe that I have a wonderful plan and purpose for your life.
Read chapter 8 of Romans and mediate on Jeremiah 29:11.
Re-read the life of Joseph. It will encourage you.
Look for me in the small things that are sometimes overlooked.
With all my love, I give you peace, and not as the world gives it….
I’ll be back soon,
Your heavenly Father
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